April Reflection(1 post, Once a Month)

In honesty, April Showers have been the way, flowers unearthed, new blooms and outside the world-wide pandemic underway, life has a way of feeling like the circumstances. It's been chilly, rainy, warm, sunny, gloomy and well that sounds similar to my personal transition through this month.

March 11, 2020 was the official WHO release of our global pandemic, approached our 19th Wedding Anniversary on the 24th, our time we tend to get in the car and we end up somewhere new, or a comfy destination that is familiar. Never the less that was spent at home in lock- down, which ideally was a very great opportunity to rest, emotionally, physically from pre-pandemic, we had already felt the tiredness, hence the need for that vacation yearly. April was much of the realities you might relate to grief, which from my heart, is expressed and journeyed differently for each individual, never the less there are steps in it and I'll simply just share the steps, as there is no necessary need to emphasize how I processed because re-read and you know, everyone's way is their own:

grief

noun

deep sorrow, especially that caused by someone's death.

"she was overcome with grief"

The seven emotional stages of grief are usually understood to be shock or disbelief, denial, bargaining, guilt, anger, depression, and acceptance/hope. Symptoms of grief can be emotional, physical, social, or religious in nature.

https://www.medicinenet.com/loss_grief_and_bereavement/article.htm

Life, outside of home, that's really what changed overall, As thankfully (and still concerning was our work places, and for me, concern for my Hubby Chad, He has immune disorder, and other health-related issues, but He as I fell further into the necessary need to fall into Faith, Remembering the Lord's Promises in our personal lives). It's real that you seek control normally, you want to seek out measures to protect and bubble wrap yourself and those closest to you, but I tearfully welcomed the truth, we are all here for the Lord, and no matter what befalls the journey, ultimately we don't outsmart, outplan, outwit death, that area I am versed in when I lost my mom. Death is Joyous and I know we human minded have to rationalize with age, who, how etc. But, I broke very hard in losing my mom, by that, Acceptance of the many facets of death...internally you have to go deep and be ready to embrace that true rebirth. It's necessary, however, many don't want to discuss or rather think of that aspect to living this side of heaven...but, you must, and will, He will introduce you to prepare you out of great love, not to keep your heart from breaking 100 ways, but to soften, respeak life into the death of the human body, we live eternally, spiritually forever, so death here is the result of finishing the plans He set before you...you are home, our real place, your long suffering through and homesick for...but you have to be reminded you have a place in such a time as this, and your purpose needs fulfilled. I take away all this month simply to seasons, unknowns, scripture verses and realities, you must absorb life as it's lived, to really live, you can't numb it out! It makes you different, but all the more blessed to shine...others need encouragement in hurts, joys and unknowns...will you take time, slow down, really, stop, and explore deep...He has a message, all tears, all fears, all questions He sees, holds, hears and provided just as you need in accordance to Him and your own walk in Him. Cling tight, Embrace and Fall Forward into living Faith-Filled.

Blessings& Light

Blue Eyed Girl©